Griping...

Christmas Eve is here.  The little one and I went to the YMCA this morning, then I stopped at the mall and got a few new shirts :-).  My husband is always SO TIRED because he doesn't sleep well at night, has anxiety and depression.  HIS father was depressed at holidays so the holidays including birthdays were never a happy time for him growing up.  As an adult the tradition is still here :-(.  He is exercising, but it's not doing enough.  He is still down in the dumps.  He won't take meds since he tried Zol.oft and didn't like the side affects and refuses to try others.  He won't go to a therapist.  Therefore, I am the one carrying it all as far as family goes.  He is doing great at his job and is definitely carrying it there.  He has actually been working his butt off and it all came after this status increase he applied for and got so I can't tell if he is has seasonal depression which he usually gets or if it is all exasperated by his new job status and too much work.  He has taken this week off and I can tell you guys since so one reads this he is not a pleasure to be around.  I feel like he is being very critical of me and things I did while he was SO busy at work and if i had to move forward I did them, but it's now how HE would have done things.  Grrrr....  He has thanked me a number of times, but then he turns around  and is critical.  WTH?

On the positive.  5 year old and Christmas is GREAT!  She is so excited, singing christmas carols, and has been counting down the days on her advent calendar.  So cute :-).

In a few hours we are going to pick up my MIL, my relaxing tranquil spot is coming to an end.